The journey with the 10 Great Macrocosmic Powers continues. This month our wonderful Tantra and Shaivism student, Cintia gives us her reflections on a day with Dhumavati:
Like an invisible ghost we realised was always there, we could see the constant silent presence of Dhumavati in every moment of our life… for no second is the same, and when there’s an end, there she is, pointing towards the silent observer in us that is unchangeable
… and in those moments of the most agonising of pain, when we reached rock bottom, and life seemed to have no way out… Dhumavati came, and in her wisdom, showed us the light at the end of the tunnel. In each women there She resides, in every turn around moment just before – and even after – the fatal fall, then a moment of stillness where somehow we reached a profound wisdom, an incommensurable power within. We cannot explain where it came from, but it is not of this world.
She is also present in moments of profound pleasure, and of happiness, that we tend to want to grab on to and want to make last forever… and as we practised conscious touch and we became aware of her silent, vibrating yet still wisdom, we all seemed to reach a deeper level of our being, bringing us to a fullness of presence that we so easily forget, but that is filled with life, but not quite the way we feel life normally… and with awareness.
The very silent, still, and almost invisible presence of Dhumavait, touched our group of women deeply, and somehow we knew that none of us left that room the same, something had been profoundly changed, but there seemed to be not much we could say about what exactly…
Feedback from the workshop series:
The great goddess Dhumavati – she who conceals all that is unnecessary in smoke. She is found in the great beatific void. As long as we have Dhumavati, we always have hope.